A blind man's map

The sun called from the hills, it was day again...
Reminded me I was alive, breathing and still sane...
With my weakened limbs, and battered heart...
I moved out , moved out from me into the sun...


A new sun had come, it knew nothing of my sad past...
Laughed, tried to make merry, make smiles, make love...
I forced a smile back, thus lied to the bright sun...
The stars knew I was untrue, a liar, a heathen...


The stars were too shy, they never faced the sun...
My lie remained hidden in me, my untrue smile...
In me for a hundred years, and a hundred years more ...
Until...

My eyes betrayed me, they spoke of false me...
Revealed my smile false, and the pain I hid in me...
They looked up to the sun and showed no fear...
The Sun was furious, it blinded my eyes, blinded me...

The clouds called from the hills, it was raining again...

Reminded me I was blind, calm, silent and in slight pain...
I could see nothing, Not the drops from heaven...
Neither the drenched forests, nor the wet plains...


A face hovered in front, a face wet with rain and tears...
Eyes closed or open, the face refused to dissolve, it cried...
A face I had betrayed, a face I tried to forget, a face...
From my yesterday, it found its way following a golden trace...


My limbs took charge, they ran a wild race..
Above the mountains, across the valleys...
Tried to get away from the crying face in vain...
The Sun was a stranger now, the rain my enemy...


On a hanging cliff, I sat down to rest, to realize...
From years till date, I hated the crying face...
I learned to love a sad face, to make it my own...for..
The face was now the map of the world for blind me...

Lost in the Rain.

Sighing gently,Walking down the silent hill..Thanking the Gods for the world around was still..
The morning mist clouded the air, was hazy..But the path was downhill, life seemed easy..
Conifers strewn, all over the mountain side...The squirrels take notice, run to hide..
A silent chaos ensued, I smiled...Hands in pocket, I still walked downhill...


The sky rumbled somewhere far away...A light drizzle began to follow me...
A light sob, somewhere in the woods...No,not again, I tried to run away...
A great conifer I could see...I ran from the rain, from the sob...
Under the tree I waited for both to end..Neither ceased, thus I ceased to wait...


The rain lashed on my face...As I moved out of the conifer...
I could still hear the sob...Why should She only suffer?


I found her sitting, head on knees...Her hair played in the wind...
The skies grew angry still...Showed no mercy, not to me nor to her...
She looked up, looked past me ...Rain drops pricked her face....she looked away...
Rain washed away her precious tears...but still neither ceased,nor her tears nor the rain...


Her helpless hands searched aimlessly for someone...Once I had held someone's hands...
I was afraid, too afraid to hold them again..."Sire", she called,I tried not to listen...
The pain still afresh in me, the rain made me cold..."Please" she said, I turned away...
Her blind eyes, searched endlessly.... I moved back..back away from her, back into time past...


She was lost outside, I on the inside...Her tears had ceased, the sobs in my ears had not...
I wished to run away, her eyes will haunt me forever...She will never forgive me, I know..
The rain still lashed me hard...I ran faster, the growing distance made me look back once...
But that was all, I cursed myself "why did you...", I knew the answer, yet chose not to answer...


A monster I had become...
why, no one knew