Lost in the Rain.

Sighing gently,Walking down the silent hill..Thanking the Gods for the world around was still..
The morning mist clouded the air, was hazy..But the path was downhill, life seemed easy..
Conifers strewn, all over the mountain side...The squirrels take notice, run to hide..
A silent chaos ensued, I smiled...Hands in pocket, I still walked downhill...


The sky rumbled somewhere far away...A light drizzle began to follow me...
A light sob, somewhere in the woods...No,not again, I tried to run away...
A great conifer I could see...I ran from the rain, from the sob...
Under the tree I waited for both to end..Neither ceased, thus I ceased to wait...


The rain lashed on my face...As I moved out of the conifer...
I could still hear the sob...Why should She only suffer?


I found her sitting, head on knees...Her hair played in the wind...
The skies grew angry still...Showed no mercy, not to me nor to her...
She looked up, looked past me ...Rain drops pricked her face....she looked away...
Rain washed away her precious tears...but still neither ceased,nor her tears nor the rain...


Her helpless hands searched aimlessly for someone...Once I had held someone's hands...
I was afraid, too afraid to hold them again..."Sire", she called,I tried not to listen...
The pain still afresh in me, the rain made me cold..."Please" she said, I turned away...
Her blind eyes, searched endlessly.... I moved back..back away from her, back into time past...


She was lost outside, I on the inside...Her tears had ceased, the sobs in my ears had not...
I wished to run away, her eyes will haunt me forever...She will never forgive me, I know..
The rain still lashed me hard...I ran faster, the growing distance made me look back once...
But that was all, I cursed myself "why did you...", I knew the answer, yet chose not to answer...


A monster I had become...
why, no one knew

Where Did I Go wrong...

Shaping up to the world, I had tried to live in joy...
I don’t know somewhere along the path...
I made a mistake, one beyond compare...
I thought I knew how to save a life, but I was so wrong...

I saw something was broken, I tried to fix it...
I felt I had the love the care to mend it…
It’s ruined now, I sit and cry in vain...
I had not seen such despair ealier, never such pain...
You seek to look up to me, ask me something…
I am not deaf, yet I cannot listen…

Perhaps I am running away from you…
Perhaps I am closing my eyes to the truth…
The tears are heavy, they don’t stop…
They tear my eyelids apart…
The caress my cheek and kiss my feet…
I say please stop, no more of this pain can I take…
They don’t listen, don’t stop, don’t heed my plead…
Ah, must I be so weak, as to spill my heart on the ground…
If you could se you could understand…

The feelings are too many, too mixed up…
I am confused, some call me out some trap me in…
I don’t know if I could ever stand up again…
The world won’t let me…I have fallen…
I just wanted to show you…how it all began..