Where did i go right.....or wrong

Shaping up to the world, I had tried to live in joy...
I don’t know somewhere along the path...
I made a mistake, one beyond compare...
I thought I knew how to save a life, but I was so wrong...


I saw something was broken, I tried to fix it...
I felt I had the love the care to mend it…
It’s ruined now, I sit and cry in vain...
I had not seen such despair earlier, never such pain...

You seek to look up to me, ask me something…
I am not deaf, yet I cannot listen…
Perhaps I am running away from you…
Perhaps I am closing my eyes to the truth…
The tears are heavy, they don’t stop…
They tear my eyelids apart…
The caress my cheek and kiss my feet…
I say please stop, no more of this pain can I take…
They don’t listen, don’t stop, don’t heed my plead…

Ah, must I be so weak, as to spill my heart on the ground…
If you could se you could understand…
The feelings are too many, too mixed up…
I am confused, some call me out some trap me in…
I don’t know if I could ever stand up again…
The world won’t let me…I have fallen…
I just wanted to show you…how it all began..