Have I...have I begun to feel

Never had I felt, the shiver of the cold…
Icy winds sang to me, made me feel numb….
Yet I never had known pain any…
My insides froze upon me…

I dreaded the day when I would, begin to feel again…
It would chaff my lips, would hurt my thawed soul, it will….
I know not, if I shall survive the cold, the fimbul winters…
Without kissing my love, the lovely minstrel again….

Yes, the day came and went, gave way to eternal night…
The cold never hurt me it never did….
But this friendly warmth gives me the frights…
Comrades, my people, I ask for forgiveness, I am no friend…
Never was never will be, for a small time I tried to be…

The time has passed…I regret it maybe…
For now…. I am no more than an evil fiend to thee…
Forgive me, I implore, before thee I kneel…

I have yes… I have begun to now feel…

Where did i go right.....or wrong

Shaping up to the world, I had tried to live in joy...
I don’t know somewhere along the path...
I made a mistake, one beyond compare...
I thought I knew how to save a life, but I was so wrong...


I saw something was broken, I tried to fix it...
I felt I had the love the care to mend it…
It’s ruined now, I sit and cry in vain...
I had not seen such despair earlier, never such pain...

You seek to look up to me, ask me something…
I am not deaf, yet I cannot listen…
Perhaps I am running away from you…
Perhaps I am closing my eyes to the truth…
The tears are heavy, they don’t stop…
They tear my eyelids apart…
The caress my cheek and kiss my feet…
I say please stop, no more of this pain can I take…
They don’t listen, don’t stop, don’t heed my plead…

Ah, must I be so weak, as to spill my heart on the ground…
If you could se you could understand…
The feelings are too many, too mixed up…
I am confused, some call me out some trap me in…
I don’t know if I could ever stand up again…
The world won’t let me…I have fallen…
I just wanted to show you…how it all began..